So, with a little nudge, here I am posting to my "fans of Lec" board...
The life of Lec has been interesting to say the least. With moving and uncertainty in the market i do feel sick to my stomach more often than not. The move is almost complete, however, making the new house a home has just begun.
Today, as usual I have been worrying about my current job and all the thoughts that go along with those kind of worries. Growing up dirt poor in central Illinois has taught me that if I had to go back to that lifestyle that I could survive. However, I do not wish that life on anyone. I feel sick to my stomach at the state of our country and the blind believers in politics, on both sides of the fence.
I feel sad for the ones who have lost their jobs, and I feel sad for the ones who have many things in life to be joyous about but unfortunately have that one dark cloud hanging over thier head that takes away all that queued up happiness. Can happiness be like cell phone rollover minutes? Meaning, if there are things I can or should be happy about today but cant because of the impending doom hanging over my head, can I store the happiness and use it later when the doom and gloom has landed?
One can wish, can't I?
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Ugh...moving, now that is a stressor! I would not have nudged so hard, had I known...lol
Reading your blog, and recognizing a certain tone, I managed to stop my fingers from adding a flippant response. It reminded me of something I studied a long time ago, at a definitively different stage in my life.
Ever hear of "The Dark Night of The Soul?" Theologians, Mystics, and Psychiatrists all explore and often tie the concept together.
Several Christian Mystics captured my interest; Julian of Norwich, Teresa of Avila, and the Spanish Mystic, St. John of the Cross, who wrote "The Dark Night of The Soul."
The major theme of painful suffering, is not just Christian in context, but universally human. Gerald G. May and Therapist / Theologian Thomas Moore have done much with the premise in contemporary times. (Care of the Soul,Dark Nights of the Soul).
The simple fact is, it is not IF the dark night will come, it is, what will you do when it's there. One response, is meditation, contemplative prayer, etc. For me, in the darkest times, I force myself to keep a gratitude journal, and find 3 things to be grateful for, even if it is a stretch. When life is good, you do not need a structured discipline. When it sucks, utterly, having a structure, helps, when the feeling is not there. Sorta like exercise for the soul.
So, no, I don't think happiness rolls over, I think it is the memory of the usage, that helps us in the times of suffering. And, truly, if we did not go through the dark nights, we would have so little appreciation for the other times, which are savored and precious. So my vote is, celebrate happiness when it occurs.
PS - Growing up dirt poor in Central Illinois means you are a survivor...and my guess is, you will never go back to the same scenario, no matter what. ;) And you know, there are some of us who dream of going home again. I miss those cornfields.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BLzvF6
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHbiXCaEOuI
ahem....you are seriously lacking in Thoughts, Madcap. lol
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